Friday, April 3, 2009

Tick Tock


Try as I might, it seems that I cannot stop making mistakes on my oldest child.

I seem to have the shortest temper with her and expect more than I should from her. Every night when I see her asleep (usually on my bedroom floor) I realize that she deserves better, and I resolve to do better. Sometimes I do; sometimes I fall short. Way short.

Up to this point I have comforted myself with the fact that she is so young that she will not remember all of my mistakes.

But, now she's four! I remember things from when I was four! So the chances are that she will, too! I have officially run out of time to greatly improve my parenting skills.

5 comments:

Sylvia said...

We must be on the same wave lenght this week because this is exactly how I've been feeling with Brighton. I lost my temper so bad the other night I smashed the Nintendo DS...now who's the child?
Here's to us being better moms next week :)

Unknown said...

I feel the same way about my Noah. I know I expect so much more from him and it's a heavy mantle to be the firstborn. I'm a middle child, so I have other issues.

LeeAnn said...

Amazing as it is(due to all our scew-ups) these first born children survive us and grow up to be fantatic functioning adults!

Jana said...

I know how you feel. I do the same thing with Billy. Then I look at him and see his sweet face and know I need to do better. It's tough, but all of us will make it through.

Grammy T said...

We all as parents do what we think is best, and hopefully she will remember that you love her!! I think being a grandparents is God's way of giving us a second chance to just love our children and not worry about the small stuff!