Friday, April 3, 2009

Tick Tock

Try as I might, it seems that I cannot stop making mistakes on my oldest child.

I seem to have the shortest temper with her and expect more than I should from her. Every night when I see her asleep (usually on my bedroom floor) I realize that she deserves better, and I resolve to do better. Sometimes I do; sometimes I fall short. Way short.

Up to this point I have comforted myself with the fact that she is so young that she will not remember all of my mistakes.

But, now she's four! I remember things from when I was four! So the chances are that she will, too! I have officially run out of time to greatly improve my parenting skills.


Sylvia said...

We must be on the same wave lenght this week because this is exactly how I've been feeling with Brighton. I lost my temper so bad the other night I smashed the Nintendo who's the child?
Here's to us being better moms next week :)

Kiersten said...

I feel the same way about my Noah. I know I expect so much more from him and it's a heavy mantle to be the firstborn. I'm a middle child, so I have other issues.

LeeAnn said...

Amazing as it is(due to all our scew-ups) these first born children survive us and grow up to be fantatic functioning adults!

Jana said...

I know how you feel. I do the same thing with Billy. Then I look at him and see his sweet face and know I need to do better. It's tough, but all of us will make it through.

Grammy said...

We all as parents do what we think is best, and hopefully she will remember that you love her!! I think being a grandparents is God's way of giving us a second chance to just love our children and not worry about the small stuff!